Posted to LJ on: May. 25th, 2008 at 10:14 AM
Here's the gist of a post I made on a friend's D/s discussion board:
Earlier this week I stopped in at Wild at Heart and picked up a book that had some promise. He's on Top edited by Rachel Kramer Bussel
Anyway, I finally got around to reading some of the stories this weekend and let me just say this book should come with a warning label. Most of the stories are well written (if a little tame for my reading tastes). But last night I stumbled upon the story "The Sun Is an Ordinary Star" by Shanna Germain. It starts off giving credence to the fact that it's in a collection of erotic fiction, but then blind sides the reader.
After the narrator finishes his flashback prompted by finding a pair of nipple clamps under the bed, he tells us about his wife's battle with breast cancer and we come to understand that he's about to pick her up from the hospital after her lumpectomy. The rest of the story recounts his big stupid guy mistake. He treats his wife like she's this fragile form that can be barely touched and certainly not capable of withstanding their previous sexual activities. This of course brings much frustration to both parties. In a moment of desperation she says "I need you to stop fucking me like I'm dying, I'm not dying. But every time you touch me soft, every time you ask if I'm okay, another little piece of me falls off." Then the author gives us 1/2 a page of "resolution" in which the narrator finds his gonads again and is determined to top his wife.
The more investment a person has in caring for his or her partner, the riskier our kinky D/s activities feel. I'm one of the luckiest girls I know--I have a primary partner with whom I can share my life, I have a dominant partner who truly understands what my submission is all about, I have a primary girlfriend who gets my top-juices flowing like no other and then goes shopping with me afterwards, and I have a whole community of friends who are there every time I reach out my hand. None of that changes the fact that I'm positively scared out of my whits of finding myself in the position described in the story above. What it does change is my belief about what will happen if I do find myself there. Things will work out. We're all strong smart people and none of us will stop loving one another.
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